Jody Jody

Even with a free medical checkup tmr early morning, i need to write this down 10min to 4am... Just as i was feeling down and lonely, and tried to think of someone i could really talk to, he sms me...... even thought i need to wait.... is was worth anything.......... i found a person who i can talk about me, and i will listen....

This afternoon, there was a "joke" i told my bf, you know that aparrently, most of my ex who i was with, they found the right one the next time round.... i guess after me, those girls are angel..... ahha...then he ask me to sacrifice a bit.. haha.. when i told joe, the joke i told my bf, He stoned a think for a second...

I realise that i am myself when i am in my own car, my own space, where my true feelings are... where i cry, smile or angry....... when i ask joe the strength of jody jody, he told me to read book of relationship building....... then i was thinking why and i zone out...... then i ask him stupid question til he got to tell me right in my face.......

if i would be paid nothing and will work... i would love to travel the world and write about the place and experience..... like producing a lonely planet.........


i told him my strength for jody is to talk, and i can make rubbish beautiful... he suggest i can try accounts executive...... talk cock, relax... hahah... cool job......joe say that i must go the money and you master key programme next april..... while joking about marriage and being trainer.. i told him, probably next time i would run "single and happy" seminar for woman.. he say is possible and there is a market for it......

i really learn alot, and most important to know more about jody jody and jody with the mask.... jody and with the mask is an unhappy person with alot of sadness using happiness to cover it...... for this, i got to do a standing ovaltion.... not many people can see this..... probably 3 or 4 people.... maybe i should not suppress my feeling no more....

16 months since i left the force, it was full of ups and downs..... like many people who want to leave their job....... i grab hold of the sales/property job, i will not say that i regret it........ I know, i couldn't pick up anything to learn from the force........ i had to leave, and the market was not good..... and i did not have any private working experience.......

Meeting up with my changi people recently, has really brighten my life..... If i never leave changi, i probably won't leave the force.... Yes, changi had changed alot.... the red roller shuttle was no longer there, the current one look like the one in paya lebar... they have a barrier at changi...... look weird... they partition the paramedic tv area.......

year 2005 was the best, as i first step into the station as a operational paramedic... many things like people and cases came thru my mind........... but the best thing happen was friendship...... not only with the paramedic side but as well as the fire side.... We took good care of each other, and working was fun.. i didn't drag myself to work, cause the people are great......

Maybe, i am the social butterfly of 22........... or maybe i just love to have people around..... i can do sales, but i dun think i would like to be in sales industry...... but i really learn alot from there.... but i just can't survive on the pay.....cause i am not a money orientated person.....

i love to travel and experience life... different culture, different food and the way of life....... as i embark another journey of searching of career... i hope to have something i like to do, not i need to do..............

tmr interview at newton at 11am, sunday at hilton ( something that i really want to do ), next thursday at dover at 3pm....... 16 months of on off slacking is enough... time to go back to the battle..... to let people see who am i ..... i am a fighter, with great fighting spirit........

Trust in the Lord, and be patient..... He knew what is best for me.. Amen...