2 days ago ( 02122010), Jolene and I went to the Argentina Tango Appreciation Course, taught by isaac... I am loving it.... Of course, u always have to start with the basic..... the walk, posture, how to move with your partner, and how to use the sensor bar around the scapula region to know where ur partner want u to do ( the man lead ) and then the embrace..... the head and the chest close to each other......

The shoes that i bought for the dancing,,,, 3 inch..... when it cross the 2 hour mark..... it was like pain.... and then when i wore back my own munich heels.... it just feel like flats to me. My lower legs are aching until today... But it was worth it... the music, the dance.... and is amazing to know and feel how ur partner want to start and stop and move around without cheographing.

until today, even when i took my m5 paper, when i cant't figure out something.. i close my eyes, stomach in, chest out, so much confident, an stress free, and did my paper again.. I was talking to fehrin yesterday, is is hard to find a good dancing partner that connect 2 person who are not lover together... telepathy i guess.... so is going to be a big search... and most of the singaporean guys aren't tall...... ( oops ) and when i wear heels, is going to look weird.......

Last Sunday, mark the 1st year old Bdae of uncle lai and vivienne's daughter.... The last time, i blink my eyes, it was their wedding..... and now.... zutong is 1 year old....
Their family potrait for now... and uncle lai had left the force to ktph as a a&e asst manager. Yeo also left the force to ite east college.Wee kiat resigned also, and alot of pregnant mummies underneath the hq, karen, zarinah, shirleen and soon to be justina.......

My fav place in singapore got to be East coast. I can go there 3 times a day, and i am fine..... I love to run there.. from carpark f3 to national sailing club, or enjoying...... it is refreshing and relaxing, feeling the breeze, the wave splashing the coast.............

I definately would not mind chilling out at east coast, drinking wine, champagne with friends or loved one.........

There was one friday, when i was surfing on fb, jolene fb msg me... and then we were chatin ... She wanted to chill alone at the west coast mac... then i jio her meet in between... kallang mac. She say meet east coast mac.... like in half an hour time. She was from clementi...... Woh ! She was fast and deceive......

Few days before, we were talking about learning new language, thai, jap or korean... and she mention argentina tango.. my eyes were wide opened! and i told her i would join immediately... And every night, i was watching u-tube of the argentina tangi...... just imagine dancing the person u love most.....

I met jolene when i was in smm ( smti now ) during the level 2. Then we met in kaplan, taking the same course ( Bachelor in Commerce with double majors in hospitality & tourim and Marketing ) together with Huang song. Then when she had to do her ambulance attachment, i asked her to join me during my night shifts, and i gave her lots of opportunity to do IV.. alot of attachment dun get to take case.. I mean if is stable case and i am supervising, why not ? We learn and we teach.. for me.

In few hours time, class of ptcom2 are going to meet at swissotel for the 3rd time since we graduate ! Woh.. cool... catching up !

And i knew, he just say he is not serious about meeting me.... hate u....... i should have open my champagne yesterday, then i wouldnt sleep at 5am. You would want to drink with people u enjoy company with, not with someone tat make u uncomfortable.

Hypothesis : i am a weekly one bottle wine/champagne gal.

Good or bad ?

I miss writing my blog

I realise it has been a long time since i write my "open" blog..... and it is boring....... i dun know wh,y..... it just full of words............. i refresh my old "now-close" blog, is full of picture and minor detail.... some of them, i cant even remember anything til i saw the photo...... so i will try my best to update and put more photo here.... more for memories if i forget next time......

Sometime that happen last week 27112010, the ex-changi ppl (2005-2006) manage to have a minor gathering at simpang bedok..... it was cool, to see some old friend.... as usual i am the joke of the day......

Remember the interview, i went for hilton... it turn out to be prudential in the end........ then i went for another interview at NUHS for fund raiser co-ordinator, which turn out that my written english was not adequate.....

Guess what, the above picture, is taken before we talk to issac, and thinking of joining of financial industry.... and .guess what it was the first time that i did not clear my test on the first time..... and earlier in the afternoon... I cleared it.... and i told justin thaht i did not pass it.. maybe so that he can study harder.....

Send my car for servicing..... daniel called me, must change air filter, filter, battery, brake pads..

600 dollars gone.... argh........

went to this tcm.... suppose for slimming with accuputure...... and then i all like diy... come on if i can diy..... i have already succeed..... why should i spend 2888 w/o gst to make sure i did.... and i ever spend 8k on mf, just to have bad allergy reaction due to the cold wrap which they specialise...

I want to open my rose champagne now, but then fehrin say that he might be drinking with me tomorrow...... U know what is the irritating part, he is free tmr night, but can't confirm... So, what, i am the sss1 or sss2........ if u r free, u can confirm, if not open now or tmr..... i can't wait til tomorrow to open tonight...... right...... "most likely, not confirm" then wat........ if got prettier girl then, u wont be free.... if not, u available to drink....... WTH

i try to update more happening for me for the past few months tomorrow afternoon if i am free... before the ptcom2 gathering.... and i wanna say about my argentina tango.... sexy.... juicy...

Jody Jody

Even with a free medical checkup tmr early morning, i need to write this down 10min to 4am... Just as i was feeling down and lonely, and tried to think of someone i could really talk to, he sms me...... even thought i need to wait.... is was worth anything.......... i found a person who i can talk about me, and i will listen....

This afternoon, there was a "joke" i told my bf, you know that aparrently, most of my ex who i was with, they found the right one the next time round.... i guess after me, those girls are angel..... ahha...then he ask me to sacrifice a bit.. haha.. when i told joe, the joke i told my bf, He stoned a think for a second...

I realise that i am myself when i am in my own car, my own space, where my true feelings are... where i cry, smile or angry....... when i ask joe the strength of jody jody, he told me to read book of relationship building....... then i was thinking why and i zone out...... then i ask him stupid question til he got to tell me right in my face.......

if i would be paid nothing and will work... i would love to travel the world and write about the place and experience..... like producing a lonely planet.........


i told him my strength for jody is to talk, and i can make rubbish beautiful... he suggest i can try accounts executive...... talk cock, relax... hahah... cool job......joe say that i must go the money and you master key programme next april..... while joking about marriage and being trainer.. i told him, probably next time i would run "single and happy" seminar for woman.. he say is possible and there is a market for it......

i really learn alot, and most important to know more about jody jody and jody with the mask.... jody and with the mask is an unhappy person with alot of sadness using happiness to cover it...... for this, i got to do a standing ovaltion.... not many people can see this..... probably 3 or 4 people.... maybe i should not suppress my feeling no more....

16 months since i left the force, it was full of ups and downs..... like many people who want to leave their job....... i grab hold of the sales/property job, i will not say that i regret it........ I know, i couldn't pick up anything to learn from the force........ i had to leave, and the market was not good..... and i did not have any private working experience.......

Meeting up with my changi people recently, has really brighten my life..... If i never leave changi, i probably won't leave the force.... Yes, changi had changed alot.... the red roller shuttle was no longer there, the current one look like the one in paya lebar... they have a barrier at changi...... look weird... they partition the paramedic tv area.......

year 2005 was the best, as i first step into the station as a operational paramedic... many things like people and cases came thru my mind........... but the best thing happen was friendship...... not only with the paramedic side but as well as the fire side.... We took good care of each other, and working was fun.. i didn't drag myself to work, cause the people are great......

Maybe, i am the social butterfly of 22........... or maybe i just love to have people around..... i can do sales, but i dun think i would like to be in sales industry...... but i really learn alot from there.... but i just can't survive on the pay.....cause i am not a money orientated person.....

i love to travel and experience life... different culture, different food and the way of life....... as i embark another journey of searching of career... i hope to have something i like to do, not i need to do..............

tmr interview at newton at 11am, sunday at hilton ( something that i really want to do ), next thursday at dover at 3pm....... 16 months of on off slacking is enough... time to go back to the battle..... to let people see who am i ..... i am a fighter, with great fighting spirit........

Trust in the Lord, and be patient..... He knew what is best for me.. Amen...

Confused

After yesterday night, with clement, roland, kelvin hoo, supper at 85...... as usual... cant really wake up.......... so i just continue to sleep..................

I sms faizal, just to realise i am with kelvin............. kelvin say i dun need to hit field because i never go office.............. haha.... i dun know what is going on........ i dun feel like self employed being restricted like red taped, but being paid like an low paid salaried worker........

I think is time.........to find something to do with travelling.......

disaster on a bdae eve

Today, is my 27th birthday....... the happy month out of the 12 months...... but this month alot of things happen... sickness after sickness........

Yesterday, we were happily boarding the plane from the budget terminal....... we were dying to return to Krabi, after 3 years......... But it turn out to be disaster.......

Everything well fine.... landing.. going to the hotel, check in.......went for lunch....... then we realise that the Nikon D80 camera was under the seat of the aircraft......OMG ! Ya, quarrel at the makan place..... The cabin crew asked justin to sit at the emergency exit row. As i prefer window, i remain at my original seat. I thought camera was inside the longchamp bag, but no............. so screw, and i did take photo using my canon outside the airport...... how could we not realise earlier...... why did i bring out the first place......... i was still thinking going back to snapz for my photography classes earlier while on the plane............

We cant get the people in the airport, then cant get people over at singapore side. They kept pushing here and there. There was no number and email that we could report immediate to the tiger people in thailand or singapore.... such a disappointment........ dun even when u call from thailand to singapore...... tiger ask u to call airport group..........

we rushed back immediate to the airport, hoping for people to leave item there..... We reach, but then nobody reported and we cant report to the people there. no choice then went to town, miss it but no mood...

While coming back, thinking of tailor my shirt, it started raining heavily....... we were lost about 2-3 times............ it rain even heavier........... wet, cold and feeling lousy............. i dun know how to describe the feeling............ i feel shit....... really........ we were suppose to be happy because it was my bdae and his holidays..............

I never have habit of putting my stuffs underneath the seats, and then he got to change place....... then when i took photo, he wanted to ask me, but he never....... i did a quick check, there was nothing...... and he did ask me why i bring that camera to krabi..... i say is the first time this camera is going there............

bike is his everything.........but camera is one of my best friend and the one who always break ice with others........ i miss you, if u have new owner, i hope it take care of you.......

I am sad, really......cause it cost at least 1.2k and i wouldn't wanna spend these kind of money anyhow...... and my charger with canon cable plus micro lens are all there... is like everything for the person............. how can the cabin crew not see....... how can the students with lecturer not God has a reason for everything that has happen....... Good or bad......... we can say, we feel but can't say why........... I pray that there will be a good person that will return things, and strength to overcome these obstacle together. To be happy for the next few days...at least.....

With tears and love,

jody-the bdae gal today.

from krabi, thailand

Life is quite ok..... Every month can cover my expenses at least, with some $$ coming in from the property... a bit of savings......... just that i am not sure about the progress so far... but so far i guess the result are quit ok, about 1.5cc/day........

I am sick for the last 3-4 weeks also..... Work 2 days then sick for 2-3 days, then the cycle repeat by itself........... Today, i cant really talk, pain and sob the phelgm just drowning my lungs..... Had a great talk with June yesterday.......... My managing director, my idol and my friends... Just need some bitching about work....... so cool......During my first r & r trip on the 4th sept, with dameaners to Kukup, Malaysia.... Very simple, bed and bath n some boring game by the magician..... and most of us hate it.. especially your chicken killing accompany with non stop cramp-face........... we do not enjoy your entertaintment..... it SuCKS big time........

Below are the leader of volcano team as on that day : Jaceyln, Jody, Steve, Kelvin

So, steve is my trainer....... the one who teach me the skill........ and the one who is always not around for my major events............... ha ha.... overseas, reservist, selling with other business....

Had ERA brilliant division gathering at NSRCC.... and i think we are growing... of course some people left... some came..... and Huat ah.............

On the 26/6/2010 : I wrote the following :

Myself, I complain about everything just like a typical Singaporean. I complain not enough cash, shopping and holiday. I complain about my previous job, then went to property. It has been a lot of ups and downs ,indeed a lot of valuable experience.

Ya, i had alot of problem irelationship, job and including finance... So Yf told me i should plan for myself and do what is right for me. The nect day, when i told jusin, he told me, i always talk but no actions.... I kinda got to agree it was true, no matter how much i wanted to say no....

So the on a wednesday, just before i went to sleep, i download job street on iphone for fun... and then i surf just to keep my option open.... Along the way, i find something quite interesting.....After which, the next day, i submit my resume for sales or marketing job.... On the friday, i received 2 phone call from the company to invit me for interview...... but i was more interested in "travel the world with us" , but no news from them... haiz

I went to redswood, and met adrian there, loved the office, loved the environment, loved the prospect of job......... it was cool and fun........... in the afternoon, i went to jeragons, did not like door to door.... but they say i am one of the best that have see so far....... but ended up, redswood called me for 2nd interview..... jeragons did not call me at all........

I spend the lovely day with dawn, at redswoods with their organisation and how the work on field.... i know i can do it, but maybe just not on events... but i totally love the prospect........ but still no further news from them....

i learn from property, just like loi and TA, until everything is confirm, then u reject..... on wednesday evening.........wed, lixuan called me for interview the next day.... so i went, and met june- the managing director of Damean............ After i told her that i went redswood for 2nd interview. She proceed to book me for 2nd interview.................. but i step back as it was door to door............. but as i talked to her more, i know about charity and their job........ it was interesting..... i realise her character and mine was quite similar too.......

Along the way, you really meet people u dun really like. The most fortunately thing for me was to know and learn from Florence over at ERA.Without her guidance, I guess I wont be in such dilemma in chosing 2 different job offer but I am confident of getting one ! ha ha ! To chose between charity and credit card, Different challenge and different job scope.

So the next day, adrian called me for induction for next tuesday while june already booked me for lunch on the sunday.......... but everything was not confirm..... so it was confused and complicated.... but at least i felt wanted........

after the lunch with June, i really felt that our personality was very close to each other, or maybe she might be stronger than me - BECAUSE she is a managing director........ we had fun talking about personal and work mix together, it was a fun afternoon.... and i was still confused... But i know, I belong to APPCO..... but which M.D and which product line ????

So today 1st August :

Is a long time since I update my blog…… I have been busy, tired and running around in Singapore… but at least, I can cover my own cost a bit….. but the best part to me, I do have free training… it was really good and fun..... At the real corporate world, you wont have these kind of benefit or training........ And i am due for my first promotion on thursay, after hiting,

1 2 1- 2 2 = total of 8cc after 5weeks of sweats and hardwork....... when the other did their in 2nd or 3rd weeks... BUT I WANNA DO IT ON MY OWN, WITHOUT PEOPLE HELP..... I love my own achievement....

To me, i didn't understand why June n Joanne say they like field, and residential............ It was like hot, sweating and tiring.................. but i know that if i suffer that, i will reach my destination, i had to deal with it.......... few days back, i realise, ya ma, field is fun, cause it provide u with the opportunites to meet people and the challenges where the office don't provide........ i know they miss he challenge...... their challenge is a different ball game now......

Is cool, is fun and is juicy... I love to learn.... the next step is grow the team........ target 20/2/2011.... next rally 4 awards.....

So yesterday, my "darling" never ride to school............. So i offer to send hiim back.... So i went to bookstore to take a look and decided to buy :




I am reading it................. look quite interesting... i hope it will help me in my "money' matters.....


I decided that i do not want chinese or western, so we decided to go seoul garden..... slowly eating and all............ actualy i am quite impressed............ cost are cut down, because we are the chef the server and the way we want it....................

Starting the dinner !

Desert that i made for myself.. corn plus raseberyy ice-cream, with corn and other peach and all... Love it man......................

After the dinner, florence and i went to clement to farm the leftover flyers from last time... And we had a phone call from there.............. Phew........... it is so rewarding............

The day before, we went to the west pte condo to far, the fear of getting caught... adrenaine rush, and we do hava a call for rental from somewhere else.....

Starting to panick, haven been closing deal lately.............. thought of finding part time job so that i can cover my on cost............... is not easy........... starting is definately tough............. or maybe i am just too lazy................ but i a happy............... florence jie jie sure wont approve, but who dun need money ?

Congrats to Eddy who is with the force for the last day.......... From tomorrow onwards, u r a civilian.............. just like me.................. No more coding and audit with the most nonsense stuffs....

Yesterday, Ying, Din, Azhar and eddy plus me went to the Singapore Zoo..... And as usual, Ying was late.......... And the car was full of pinic and going to zoo stuffs......

Pinic in the zoo... Anybody...... 2 boxes of sandwiches.....3/4 packets of linguine....... one box of mini hot dogs, seaweed chicken, popcorn chicken, samosa and pototes chips and ya.... for 5 people going to the zoo !

It is so amazing to go to the Zoo with BFFss..... So much fun.... And finally we made

use of the welfare from SCDF... Althought 2 of us left and 1 is leavinf in a weeks time.... Weird, but ya........ Is just not a good idea to bring with pinic stuffs to walk around the zoo......... Ha ha.. But we manage to finish most of the food !

Looking forward to next outing, desaru or what?

While tossing and turning on my (Actually, my mother passed it over ) King size bed.... i dun know if it was the ice blend coffee plus the tea and tea that make me wide awake ir is because i got too much think on my mind......

Coming into the gale's showflat with thousands and one thing to do... But i actually tying y blog... Something that i enjoy when i was with the force. But no energy or motivate to write much...

Write now, feeling moody, dun know if is my period that is coming or what.. Or i just felt pull down by my partner... I really want to work hard close some deals but it seems that luck of some luck and intelligence

The end of the CNY 2010

These are my favourite dishes during CNY... cooked by my maternl grandfather..... Yummy...

So one more week before the official CNY end, but i guess for my CNY, it ended with my paternal grandmother passing away on the 5th day the New year. Maybe is good for her, considering her long list of medical problem. For me, maybe is easier to accept it.

During the wake, i did saw alot of things. Being the eldest in the family, my dad had to decide on the funeral, with may uncle and auntie want to chant and all.... and even my mother had to do something based on her ranking. And i become the eldest grand child of the family, after my sister got married and for Chinese, eldest grandson is consider son also....... OMG !

Seeing my father cry, was weird, and i have to say, my impression of him got better after the wake.... over at mandai, i saw him like cry like baby when my grandmother was pushed by machine to the crematoria..... we saw him looked up to the glass panel above us.... my sister and i wondered why......

The next day, then we realised, according to my parents, my dad say my grandmother waving at him. My mother say means go up the heaven, so chanting is good....... unbelievable... No offence, but i can communicate better with God in Christian family. Amen!

Well, anyway, at least i did celebrate for 4 days for CNY...... I still can collect ang baos, just that i can't really go visiting unless they are not superstitious. Well, until today, i have "luo hei" x5...... 1st with family, 2nd with justin's family, 3rd- at uncle house, 4th- with florence, 5th - at coffee shop with family. So must huat huat this year!

So at chu sam, we went to malaysia, to do the annual visit. And uncle jerry have a new dog, rovie. So cute, so soft toy and soft and adorable.

With the month coming to an end, is time for me to work hard and close deal... It been a long time, and i had signed exclusive at Bayshore at 2nd day of cny. Hooray ! Thanks to florence jie jie, after i see her presentation, i never failed to sign exclusive...

And jody, please dun be naive again... today, i waited for this agent, eileen from black diamond real estate for half an hour, to know that she cancel my viewing because they confirm another place. Earlier part, she wanted 1% commission from us ! Nonsense.... What ever come around goes around....

OK. OK. I need to close. I so want to close Bayshore ! co broke or what !

The PROS and cons........

The happy occasion was that I went to ERA Business conference 2010 at Suntec, wonderful experience and too much things to learn...................

And from the bottom of my heart to Congrats my Florence Jie Jie for the Top 200 awards........ (actually Top 177 )................. She is my role model, and i told her that i will be happy to be half of her in the near future............. Her time and money management, her skills and knowledge, her mindset SUPER!

The kind of atmosphere that inspire you to work harder................. Fantastic.............. I should be glad, as compare to those rookie that came in about the same as me............. I was in the conference, and seriously i definately done a better job than them but of course there are alot of improvement as compare to others !

Me and Lu Chin, and she already promoted.... OMG ! I got to work harder....... But i admire her drive and energy.. my age are younger ( oops!), but my body and heart like older than them....

I will walk faithfully with trust and hardwork to the road of success................ and thank you all if u have help me in one way.......... or "push" me to the success

Myself and the role model, : Pat ( top 50) and Florence ( top 200)

I am quite bless that i have work with and able to talk to top producer from era...... Is wonderful experience for me in mould my work after them...............

Please forgive me if i dun smile at you............... I would like to, but please give me some time, as thing on my relationship are affecting quite a bit............... I am a human who love someone to really care and loved......... But maybe is not my time yet...............

I am motivated for my work, but i am tearing as i enter this entry............... Like i say, this blog is the happiness and the positive stories........... those unhappiness will be in the other blog.........

Omar's Graduation !

2 Feb was one of my close friend, OMAR, graduation... After he left the force 2 years ago, he went for accerlation course for ite nursing. I went to the school, and it was like the fashion show............. the girls was like red carpet man....

I was introduced by him as gurantor........ funny loh........ His friend say i was girly....... ha ha........ never expected that............ even omar himself was shocked.......... they never expect that i was a paramedic before....... oh ya, who will see u if u put on nice make-up to work or function......

Anyway, omar got his first pay and we were treated to lunch buffet at Orchard ........... woh ! OMG ! Too many choice to chose from............ japanese, medditterran, chinese, english blah blah......

so i was tempted to eat italian food, the chef talk to me, ask me did i try everything........... and i should try the desert, but can't tell which specify desert to try......... omar and justin think he was trying to hit on me............. ha ha............

So i had the desert, after few days of craving, and no diet for that day............. bad, but i enjoyed.. too bad, for that lunch, i ate very very little, i didn't even try the oyster........... how stupid can i be...... maybe it the wrong time of the day......... or my stomach getting smaller..........

So is Chua Y H, Omar and me ( so fat, man! eat too much ! )

So the last few days, i have been busy, printing, folding, farming or sticking stamps for close to 1700 of bishan private mailers..... dun ask me how i do it................. i just need to do it.......

I hope just matter of time, we will succeed and become one of the top producer..........